Noise

You know the feeling. When you park the car and turn off the engine, you’re suddenly all-too-aware of just how loud everything was in the ‘background’…only it’s not background noise when there are no other sounds being made. No music, no speech, nothing else to focus on…yet all that engine sputtering and roaring and revving is ‘background’ noise.

It’s the same feeling you get in that first millisecond before you open your eyes when you first wake up – except in reverse. The point is: my brain is noisy. It’s like a beehive…and I can no longer call it background noise…because this is my life, at least 70% of the time. That never-ending engine drone. Beehive drone, whatever. Maybe I need more focus.